got out the shovel ...

finally at 4pm yesterday afternoon I started the "big dig" and officially at 6pm this afternoon I have paid all I can pay, filed all I can file (well, almost ... but I am so close I can taste it), balanced the checkbooks, sent out the invoices, figured out all that needs to be taken care of when the assessments for the community and the next paycheck comes in, overcome my fears about money & PROMISED MYSELF THAT I WILL NOT GET MYSELF IN THIS POSITION AGAIN!!!  The financial front is not perfect by any stretch of the imagination - I was actually googling "easy budgets" because I think we need a better method of knowing where our moohlah is going and whether it is coming in.  Somehow I have a hard time accepting that by watching the cash (which doesn't really exist) like a hawk will ease our money problems ... but this method is not working!!

maybe, just maybe I will actually sleep tonight without waking up in a cold sweat.  Friday I should be able to take care of the rest of our personal stuff and then I am staying on top of it - I am, I swear I am ... the last few months have been rather hellish for me in terms of my stress level and I have no doubt that is solely because of cash flow.  My method recently of dealing with our cash issues is to ignore it and pretend that I don't have to pay bills or monitor our spending.  Considering that finances are my responsibility ... things are not cool!  But with a boatload of prayers before, during and after and a concentrated effort, at least a dent has been made and a start is better than where I was.

Oh, and beachboy does get to go to camp!