goodnight

things are quite peaceful around here tonight and I am feeling quiet and serene ... two feelings I don't often think of in myself. I want to be peaceful and serene, but unfortunately I think it takes too much work for me to ever really get there: there is always something else that needs doing, or some additional work that needs finishing, or more likely, some task that desperately needs ignoring. So peaceful and serene are usually right around the corner, but I don't get there often.

However, here I am tonight, and I just want to write and write and write. If I had something really exciting to write about, or a solution to all the big problems in life tonight would be the night that I would write my personal manifesto ... but I am not quite that serene - a few more bottles of wine might get me there. If you were to ask me the one thing that I want to be at all times it would be: with class. No matter which persona, or which mood I am in, I just want to show class at all times - with my family, with my good friends and acquaintances, as the president of the PTO and as a mom. Sometimes I feel like I can pull it off, and at others I feel like I am just a faker with my diamond earrings (first mother's day gift) and pearls (wedding gift).

OK, I am going to bed now, goodnite!