money money money

wow, there is definitely something frustrating about money! There is NEVER enough of it, it keeps hubbie away from home more than we would like and it keeps me awake from 2am until 6 most nights. If there was actually a fairy who could grant me one wish, it would simply be to "keep money from ruling our lives"!! I hate that money - spending it and not spending it has such a profound effect on my life and personality from day to day.

Even having money in the bank (which I don't right now, but still there are times when it happens) causes worry, because what do we do with it - spend it, save it, what if it is not there when I need it? OMG, I am driving myself crazy with all of this ... but the kids are healthy, Beachdad likes his career so fortunately that won't be changing anytime soon, and it looks like I will be able to remain an at-home mom until beachdude goes to school full-time in the fall. Yes, I am sure I seem like a spoiled brat about all of this, but I want to stop worrying ... I mean, come on, worrying doesn't solve anything!!